Lux

You Want Me (1477 words) by lucymorningstar
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Stargate SG-1
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
Relationships: Daniel Jackson/Jack O'Neill
Additional Tags: Unresolved Sexual Tension, Angst, Drunken Confessions
Notes: Thank you to flowerswithgraves for the super fast beta ♥.
Summary: A drunk Daniel turns up on Jack's doorstep. He wants Jack, he knows Jack wants him. All he has to do is persuade Jack.

Things are going to get very stressful around here very quickly. We are moving again at the end of the month and I know that it has an effect on my mental health. Last year I wasn't prepared for it and I ended up in hospital. This year, I want to be a little more prepared.

Self-care is really important but it's easy to forget. Even though social media is full of people posting photos of colourful bath water, books and candles - but that's more Sam's style of self-care than it is mine. Jack's would involve gardening or fishing or a crossword.

I wanted a list to look at whenever I need cheering up, or if I'm feeling stressed out and can't think of ways to de-stress. But I wanted one that was specific, without tons of suggestions that aren't relevant to me. So instead of spending hours on pinterest and instagram, I decided to write down what makes me happy. My happy list.

Things to do to cheer myself up or calm myself down
1. Watch planner videos on youtube
There's something really relaxing about watching other people plan their lives, and I love getting the inspiration from their layouts. My current favourite planners are Sunshine & Stationery and MyLifeInABullet but BohoBerry and Caitlin's Corner and Christina77star and alexandraplans are also good channels to watch

2. Knit
I'm still learning and can still only do really basic stitches but I find the repetitive motion to be soothing but I can't concentrate on it for very long. Happiness is not made of dropping stitches and losing count!

3. Watch MacGyver
Or Stargate SG1. Basically spend some time admiring Richard Dean Anderson. What can I say, I adore that man and his smile makes me giddy like a schoolgirl
(The list was going to say Watch Lucifer but I'm still too upset over the cancellation :( )

4. Clean/Organise something
I find cleaning very therapeutic. I think it's the obvious act of clearing a mess, tidying things, making things organised. It's something I can take control of, it's an achievable goal and it gives me a sense of accomplishment

5. Watch Harry Potter
Especially Prisoner Of Azkaban, because it's always my favourite. I have serious amounts of love for Sirius and Remus, and I like the style and feel and look of the film.

6. Play Cards Against Humanity
It's become a fast favourite game of mine, Jack's and Sam's - it's absolutely hilarious and we can lose ourselves for hours playing it. Great way to take our minds off everything and just relax and have fun

7. Go for a walk
Fresh air and exercise - always a good mix to clear the head and will also get me out of the house for a while and give me a break from packing and related stresses. Also if I take the dogs and Jack with me for company and we can go somewhere really pretty in the car then walk.

8. Make a hot chocolate with lots of marshmallows
Add some caramel sauce and use a nice mug as well. Because nice big mugs make everything better and the combination will feel like a wonderfully warming hug.

9. Bake or cook something
It feels a little like creating magic, taking a handful of ingredients and making something tasty out of it. It makes the house smell amazing as well - is ther anything better than the smell of, for example, bread baking?

10. Have a nap
Preferably with either Sam or Jack - or both. Curl up under warm, fresh, sheets and have a cuddle, drift off to sleep with the people I love and lose myself in a good dream.

11. Watch a Marvel marathon
Steve Rogers has special powers that make Lucy feel better. I love the way the first part of the series, the way each of the characters is introduced and the team is formed. I think it's great cinema.

12. Do some yoga
I've been doing yoga for about a year now, Sam & I attend local classes although she tends to prefer pilates. I'm not claiming to be any good but I like how it makes me feel, like my mind and body are connected and I have a sense of peace

13. Have a good cry
Sometimes the healthiest thing to do is just let it out and have a really good cry. But keep it short. And use the really nice, soft, balsalm tissues.

14. Listen to some loud 80s rock music
If no-one's around and I'm home alone, I will turn the volume up, dance around in my socks, sing along using a hairbrush as a microphone and bang my head. If I'm not alone, it's just played on headphones and I close my eyes and listen.

15. Buy myself a small gift
Nothing extravagant - usually some stationery, some pens, some notebooks or something with elephants or unicorms - because it's nice to treat myself to something small to make myself feel better

16. Call a friend
It's good to talk, after all and just listening to someone else can get me out of my head. So I'll call one of my sisters, or my brother, or my parents. Or someone like my friends Jason or John or Ben can always get me out of a funk and make me laugh - they've always got funny stories about their kids

17. Make a list of all the good things in my life
Things like this usually end up as being a bullet journal collection and it's always nice to be able to sit down and think about the good things, the things that make me happy and just enjoy the feeling of them. Although this one's a blog post.

18. Tell Jack and Sam that I love them
It's such a small thing but have you ever noticed how the person you say it to lights up and then being able to do that for them makes you feel better too.

19. Buy a nice box of chocolates
And don’t share them with anyone. Not even Jack. No matter how much he pouts at me

20. Indulge in some BDSM
OK so I'm a submissive but I can still ask to be dominate, I can ask Sam or Jack to tie me up or spank me. When I go into subspace, there's nothing else that matters than obeying my dominant. Endorphins are a wonderful thing. And if it comes with bonus orgasms, even better!

So that's it. My happy list. It was a lot harder to write than I expected it to be and it's taken me almost two hours but just writing it has made me smile so I know that having it is going to help me when I'm feeling down or stressed out.

What's on your happy list?

I have loved Stargate since the 90s. I fell in love with Daniel Jackson pretty much the first time we met him onscreen. I wasn't much of a fan of Jack O'Neill but then Stargate SG1 happened and OK, he was basically a completely different character than in the movie. Also there was the whole Richard Dean Anderson factor and I've loved him since the 80s... oh MacGyver. Be still my beating heart.

Stargate SG1 was love at first watch. I was still in love with Daniel Jackson. I got used to Richard Dean Anderson and Michael Shanks very quickly and my love for Michael Shanks as Daniel soon exceeded my love for James Spader as Daniel. I fell in love with Jack O'Neill for the first time. And Samantha Carter.

I discovered this summer something called fanfiction. Now fanfiction, for anyone who doesn't know is defined as fiction written by a fan of, and featuring characters from, a particular TV series, film, etc.
And specifically I found and started reading fanfiction about Stargate SG1 and Stargate Atlantis.

I was also thrilled to discover that I wasn't the only person out there who thought that maybe Jack and Daniel were in a romantic/sexual relationship wiht each other. In fact there were thousands of stories about it. The same went for John Sheppard/Rodney McKay.
And pretty much every pairing or moresome that you can think of.

Hello new obsession!